Feeling comfortable in the uncomfortable.

I used to have a somatic reaction to uncomfortable feelings that used to led me either to run, I will walk out of the house, or any given place where this feeling rose as fast as they could while complaining and blaming the others. I will also just check out completely by going to sleep, I used my sleep as another escaped mechanism to not feel, I used to cry myself to sleep like a baby in need of comfort.

Little I knew I was only trying to escape my body, this was the way I learned through frustration as a child to comfort myself.

Going through the somatic healing approach, I am now able to have awareness of my triggers, I can feel the urge to run, this intense need to leave my body to not feel. After a while of breathing and staying in the uncomfortable, staying through the painful feelings, becoming curious with my body, and know where these feelings are held.

This doesn't happen from one day to the next, it takes a lot of compassion for yourself, lots of caring for your needs, until one day it comes clear and there is no need to run. Just to be there with your feelings, giving them the space, and acceptance.